10. 3. 31., 오후 6:09
I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.
Life is a process. We are a process. The universe is a process.YuRu asked me a question today that made me think deeply, Hmmmmmm...mmm!
Seriously I don't know because I had never came to that problem before!
Then, when it really happens then I shall start to think about it!!!
10. 3. 16., 오후 4:15
"It's no use going back to yesterday, because i was a different person then." - Lewis Carroll
They deem me mad for I will not sell my days for gold; I deem them mad for they think my days have a price. Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)
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No point of saying sorry for the mistakes you had already made.
Because I won't be same after that. Haha!
Everyone is growing to a more better person.
Being more and more matured......
10. 3. 10., 오후 4:39
I am inspired by the talk today. Is like so amazing. The questions that were asked were one i had never thought about before. Goals, Targets, Dreams, is something i didn't know about. I don't even know where i'll be heading after i pass my n-levels or even i failed my n-levels. I once thought that ITE and Poly is only the choice after the results. But after today, i realised that there were actually lots of choices for me to choose. I use to afraid of big dreams but it didn't turn out to be as fearful as it will be. Having big dreams is a goal, a target for me to work towards to. Without them, even how much i work hard, it seems like something is lost and i won't even know where i should be heading. Now, I am really interested in music and being a chef. Either one of them will be the final goals that i will be heading. I feel so motivated like finally i don't feel that i'm lost and what the hell am i doing this for?
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Theres something i won't be sharing with you girls because i don't feel like it. Even i told you girls, whats the point? You won't care about it. I rather keep it inside and never let anyone knows it. I am a loner ever since in pri school. No one actually know how i feel. Theres no such thing like real friends or maybe is just that i never had the chance to meet him/her.
10. 3. 6., 오후 9:09
In the past, laughing hard from the bottom of my heart is so easily.
But now, its seems like its getting harder and harder.
They say that a person like me, doesn't seem to have a day that i am down.
They doesn't know, only if they were me.
Even my besties doesn't know.
I am good in hiding myself right?
But I will tried to be sad in front of people.
How long can i tolerate?
They don't know that sometimes whatever they say really hurts me alot.
Sometime i think....
Actually they doesn't even respect me and they still want me to respect them..
What is this?
I tried not to get angry but i cannot tolerate.
Why is it that human are selfish sometime?
They just keep thinking in the way that they think.
They don't even trust that i will do that if it was their turn.
If they don't trust me, how can we continue to communicate?
Sometime I feel like i don't really know how to communicate with them.
I feel like talking to someone but theres no one there.
Now SNSD'S poster know everything about me.
They are the one who listen to me seriously.
Everything that I felt.
Not even lies to them.
But I won't be defeated by this. If i am easily be defeated, am I still called Angie Lee? Even though i am really sensitive about words, but one day i will show you that i am not that person. But please don't joke with me or bluff me because i will take your words seriously.